Shit. I'm sorry, man. Didn't mean to open old wounded or anything.
Good for little Kangwoo, glad he's gonna get better help.
And if you ever want to talk about all that, I know what you're going through. I lost my grandmother early this year. My grandfather like two years back... my parents before that.
Though it does remind you of priorities and who you truly want to be.
I don't know how you were but you should be proud of who you are now, man. You get up every day, even if you don't want to. You take care of your little bro, Kangwoo and your grumpy teenager, Jungkook.
Bet you take care of your mom too. And she needs that.
Just don't burn yourself out being the good son, yeah? Be proud of who you are but give yourself a break. It's okay to hurt and be angry sometimes. It's okay to be depressed. Happens to all of us.
For me, the big one was drugs. After I lost my grandmother, I did a lot of the hard stuff but... I stopped. I wanna live my life. It's just nice to escape.
I guess to them, you're their pillar. They'll get it one day, when they're older.
he is still pretty young, so it's a bit early to properly assess the severity, but he is in a specialised school now and he's doing all right
I don't know
it's complicated... he's sweet, but he can't always express himself, he can't always look at people, he melts down a lot, he can be very unpredictable... he ran into traffic when he was three, got a call about that when I was at school
sometimes he goes days only communicating nonverbally
He's the little boy you make food for, yeah? Kangwoodles. Guess he's super lucky to have a brother who loves him that much. Hopefully the special school will help him out.
Is it something that can improve or is it like coping with it? Bit like depression, I guess?
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huh, must have texted the wrong number
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I have a subject I'm passionate on so I'm being a good boy. Stayed up all last night studying it.
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what is it?
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naneun hagseubja
나는 학습자
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Korean is difficult, you can just use a translator app
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I wanna rap in Korean. Makes collabing easier.
Then we can rap about our pure and true love <3
You are the gdragon to my top
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though there scandals with them right now, so who knows
you are insane, by the way... rapping in English is hard enough
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You know the feeling, don't pretend like you don't.
You rap in two languages.
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English makes sense though. English is what they want to hear.
If you want people to listen to you.
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I love how growly your voice is but not in a gravel way, it's just ... like purring.
It's sexy.
Just like you, baby.
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there's people saying I'm a cat though, so hey, if you are into that
meow.
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Hey, so, do you like America?
How is it going, move wise?
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people notice me more
not fond of that
also, I'm so fucking short here
...I know I'm the same height, just
ugh
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I hope it gets better for you.
How come you moved? Can I ask or is it personal?
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I guess mostly for Kangwoo's sake and because she wanted a fresh start
Kangwoo is autistic and that is tough in Korea
maybe she also thought it'd be good for me, I wasn't the best for a while before my father died
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Good for little Kangwoo, glad he's gonna get better help.
And if you ever want to talk about all that, I know what you're going through. I lost my grandmother early this year. My grandfather like two years back... my parents before that.
I know the feelings intimately.
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I guess
I don't know, these things are never okay
sorry for your loss
I feel guilty because I don't know if I'd have changed the way I behaved back then if it wasn't for my father dying, because I had to shape up
I don't know
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Though it does remind you of priorities and who you truly want to be.
I don't know how you were but you should be proud of who you are now, man. You get up every day, even if you don't want to. You take care of your little bro, Kangwoo and your grumpy teenager, Jungkook.
Bet you take care of your mom too. And she needs that.
Just don't burn yourself out being the good son, yeah? Be proud of who you are but give yourself a break. It's okay to hurt and be angry sometimes. It's okay to be depressed. Happens to all of us.
The past is the past, baby. Don't dwell.
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but I'm no longer drinking a lot by myself, so there's that
I know I've got depression, but, y'know, who has time for that?
both Kangwoo and Jungkook kind of break apart at the idea of me having problems
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For me, the big one was drugs. After I lost my grandmother, I did a lot of the hard stuff but... I stopped. I wanna live my life. It's just nice to escape.
I guess to them, you're their pillar. They'll get it one day, when they're older.
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good on you for stopping
for a while, I really wanted to drink myself to death, but I have things to do now, keep living
maybe, though Kangwoo might never... I don't know how much you know about autism
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Mostly what I gathered from youtube and twitter, probably not the best sources.
I follow someone who's autistic and they make some sick beats but... not my area.
Is it bad?
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I don't know
it's complicated... he's sweet, but he can't always express himself, he can't always look at people, he melts down a lot, he can be very unpredictable... he ran into traffic when he was three, got a call about that when I was at school
sometimes he goes days only communicating nonverbally
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He's the little boy you make food for, yeah? Kangwoodles. Guess he's super lucky to have a brother who loves him that much. Hopefully the special school will help him out.
Is it something that can improve or is it like coping with it? Bit like depression, I guess?
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he used to be worse, honestly, the school is good for him
and all of it is tough on Jungkook, because he feels like he's an afterthought
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